2 Kings 4:24 NLT
“So she saddled the donkey and said to the servant, ‘Hurry! Don’t slow down unless I tell you to.’”
Father, you asked me to come and write today about what has been happening and all that you have been doing in my life since the day Joshua’s life was taken. I pray in the name of Jesus that we will not slow down unless you have instructed us, because you know our very frame and what is needed in this season of growth.
Today marks 971 days since Joshua has been gone, and it has been tough learning life all over again without him. Since then, God has given me tools to process this tremendous loss, because having someone decide for me that they had no right to has caused wounds that no doctor can see. But there is one who has seen them, heard the cries in the nights, and has washed every wound, taking care of me in ways that I can’t even imagine.
In September 2023, God spoke to me one day and said, “Make note of the steps that I have been counselling you to do.” So I took my pen and documented the highs, lows, pain, and frustration, and brought them before the Lord. In doing so, pages became letters and letters became a book titled: Emotions That Cry Out – From Grief Came Much Wisdom.
When it came to creating the title, this was the only thing that came to me. I remember my friend asking me, “Why this?” and I responded by saying, “The wounds that I have cry and are unseen to the naked eye.”Reading 2 Kings 4:8–43—it is a story of life depicting gain, loss, and gain again:
2 Kings 4:11–20 (New Living Translation)
11 One day Elisha returned to Shunem, and he went up to this upper room to rest.
12 He said to his servant Gehazi, “Tell the woman from Shunem I want to speak to her.” When she appeared,
13 Elisha said to Gehazi, “Tell her, ‘We appreciate the kind concern you have shown us. What can we do for you? Can we put in a good word for you to the king or to the commander of the army?’”
“No,” she replied, “my family takes good care of me.”
14 Later Elisha asked Gehazi, “What can we do for her?”
Gehazi replied, “She doesn’t have a son, and her husband is an old man.”
15 “Call her back again,” Elisha told him. When the woman returned, Elisha said to her as she stood in the doorway,
16 “Next year at this time you will be holding a son in your arms!”
“No, my lord!” she cried. “O man of God, don’t deceive me and get my hopes up like that.”
17 But sure enough, the woman soon became pregnant. And at that time the following year she had a son, just as Elisha had said.
18 One day when her child was older, he went out to help his father, who was working with the harvesters.
19 Suddenly he cried out, “My head hurts! My head hurts!”
His father said to one of the servants, “Carry him home to his mother.”
20 So the servant took him home, and his mother held him on her lap. But around noontime…
As I was reading this, the Holy Spirit placed on my heart to say to you that your story is still being written. God will use it, and He loves you beyond measure. For those that may be struggling with the battle, wondering what’s left and where you can go from here, I would encourage you to pray and ask God for help, wherever it may be that you are having a hard time.
I pray that my book gives you all hope, understanding that God is our source for finding happiness again. When the woman from Shunem suffered pain, she turned to the Comforter’s messenger. And I pray in the name of Jesus, through the power of the Holy Spirit, that God would speak a word to you right now—that you would know that it is well.
This week’s song of the week is called “Run to the Father” by Cody Carnes.
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God bless you,
Be still and know that He is God, and His works are still possible.
Felisha The Carpenter’s Mother