When I thought about what to say this week the only thing that seemed appropriate was writing about the War on the Mind.
I hope everyone is doing well and I pray that this weeks post will touch you in ways you never imagine and that the Lord will enlighten your eyes and give you understanding with deep revelation of who he is and why you are still here.
Many thoughts ran through my mind that Friday afternoon. I cry as I write this because I was just flooded with so many emotions. But I praise God that he has kept me since that day in September.
I thank God for his saving grace!
It has been 7 months since Joshua has been gone and it still feels very unreal. In this season if anyone was to asks me what’s the biggest obstacle that I am having l would say that it has been the war on my mind. Many times, my thought shift to him especially in the nights when I am laying in bed. Most times it affects my sleeping patterns. So, I pray because despite what has happened it is not the will of God that his children are restless in the nights.
Psalm 127:2 says it is vain for you to rise early, to sit up late to eat the bread of sorrows, for he giveth his beloved sleep.
In my post titled “The Peace of God” I wrote about how the Lord does not want our suffering to shake us to the point that it affects us physically nor mentally.
There is this book that I brought a couple of years ago called “BATTLEFIELD OF THE MIND” written by Joyce Meyers. I strongly encourage my readers to go and purchase this book. It can also be listened to on YouTube. This book talks about how the Lord wants us to renew but also have peace in our minds daily especially when hard trials come. The world has a lot to say about how we should be coping when tragedy strikes. But did you know that God also has something to say? And that he is the only one that can keep our minds in perfect peace?
I have found that while on this journey call grief that sometimes my thoughts want to overtake me and to be honest for a while, I was letting them. It was like I was stuck in a place of despair, but something happen as I started to read his word again. I started to see myself in the scriptures, I started to remember who I am and what my heavenly Father said about me.
To many I am Felisha, the mother to Joshua which is correct. But I am also the daughter of the Most high God and based on his word there are certain things that he desires for his children to have and one of them is a sound mind.
2 TIMOTHY 1:7 SAYS FOR GOD HAS NOT GIVEN ME A SPIRIT OF FEAR BUT POWER LOVE AND A SOUND MIND.
Take a few moments and pray this verse over yourself.
Personal prayer
Father God thank you for our lives. I pray in the name of Jesus that you will touch my readers in only a way that you can do. Destroy every yoke of bondage over their minds. Uproot and pluck up every thought that was not placed there by you. Let their minds be in perfect peace and fixed on you who is the great physician and I plead the blood of Jesus against every night terror.
In Joyces book, chapter 7 is called “Think about what you are thinking“. And what the Lord said to me as I was reading was that We must be careful about what you are listening to; whether it be people or music and be intentional about what you are watching in this season of grief because it will all affect and have an impact on your mood #GUARDYOURGATE.
WHAT ARE YOUR GATES?
THE TONGUE (WHAT ARE YOU SPEAKING?) -Proverbs 18:21 Death and life are in the power of the tongue: and they that love it shall eat the fruit thereof.
THE EARS (WHAT AND WHO ARE YOU LISTENING TO?) Romans 10:17 So then faith cometh by hearing, and hearing by the word of God.
THE EYES (WHAT ARE YOU WATCHING?) Matthew 6 22:23 The light of the body is the eye: if therefore thine eye be single, thy whole body shall be full of light. But if your eyes are unhealthy, your whole body will be full of darkness. If then the light within you is darkness, how great is that darkness!
THE FEET (WHERE ARE YOU GOING?) Psalm 1-2 Blessed is the man that walketh not in the counsel of the ungodly, nor standeth in the way of sinners, nor sitteth in the seat of the scornful. But his delight is in the law of the Lord; and in his law doth he meditate day and night
Over the last couple of days, I have been spending more time in the word. I even came off Instagram for a week. Because as I said before the world-social media can not fix our problems, if anything it makes matters worst. We go on there seeing people living what looks like perfect lives, but it isn’t nothing but a lie. SMOKE AND MIRROR is literally what the Holy spirit just dropped in me and that can cause us to mask our problems and not tackle what it is that we are going through. And as I began to spend more time in my fathers’ presence something supernatural has been taking place. My mood, focus and even appearance has started to change. I have even had a couple people say you sound better then last week.
I miss Joshua so much. I want my readers to know I cry as I type this. I must keep it real with you guys or to me writing would be pointless. I want my readers to know that this process is very real, but the Lord is helping me cope. Know that God is there with you, and you can lean on him. He is strong enough to uphold you. Let him heal you with his love. he is keeping me, and I know he will keep you as well and is faithful.
God has been teaching me patiently that this road of grief does not need to be a lonesome one. He cares about our feelings and wants us to know that are emotions can be aligned with his word. When reading his word always pray before you start and ask him for understanding, then once you are done meditate on that verse even if it is just one thing you remember. Allow him to feed your soul and fill the empty hurting places with his love.
Psalm 1:1-2 AMPC BLESSED (HAPPY, FORTUNATE, PROSPEROUS, AND ENVIABLE) IS THE MAN WHO WALKS AND LIVES NOT IN THE COUNSEL OF THE UNGODLY [FOLLOWING THEIR ADVICE, THEIR PLANS AND PURPOSES], NOR STANDS [SUBMISSIVE AND INACTIVE] IN THE PATH WHERE SINNERS WALK, NOR SITS DOWN [TO RELAX AND REST] WHERE THE SCORNFUL [AND THE MOCKERS] GATHER. BUT HIS DELIGHT AND DESIRE ARE IN THE LAW OF THE LORD, AND ON HIS LAW (THE PRECEPTS, THE INSTRUCTIONS, THE TEACHINGS OF GOD) HE HABITUALLY MEDITATES (PONDERS AND STUDIES) BY DAY AND BY NIGHT.
AMPC: Amplified Bible, Classic Edition
we need to practice shifting our focus from what has happened to what God says will happen. ISAIAH 43:19 SAYS BEHOLD, I WILL DO A NEW THING, NOW IT SHALL SPRING FORTH; SHALL YOU NOT KNOW IT? I WILL EVEN MAKE A ROAD IN THE WILDERNESS, AND RIVERS IN THE DESERT.
Losing Joshua has been very hard, and I will never understand why I must grow old without him by my side, but what I do know is that God is not done yet with Joshua’s story and in order for the world to hear it I must go on. I must allow him to fill this void and draw strength from him so that he can bring this next chapter to fruition.
The mind is a battlefield and if we do not take control of it with his word renewing it daily, then it will take control of us and that is not what God wants.
2 Corinthians 10:3-6
For though we walk in the flesh, we do not war according to the flesh. 4 For the weapons of our warfare are not [a]carnal but mighty in God for pulling down strongholds, 5 casting down arguments and every high thing that exalts itself against the knowledge of God, bringing every thought into captivity to the obedience of Christ, 6 and being ready to punish all disobedience when your obedience is fulfilled.
I pray that something that I wrote registered with you and that your minds would be in perfect peace, while the Lord comforts and guides you in whatever it is that you are dealing with . I also pray that he would visit you while you sleep and mend the shattered pieces.
Until next time REST please REST and know that it will get better, and you wont always feel like this.
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