Hope
/hōp/
noun
A feeling of expectation and desire for a certain thing to happen.
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This morning I asked the Lord what I should write, and I heard him say “HOPE”.
So, at 6:30 I turned off the tv and came upstairs to my room and again I asked him what to write because I really felt like I had nothing to say, but again he said “Hope”. But then he asked me a question. The Lord said to me why is hope important to have in this season?
As I laid on my bed thinking about what he had asked me the only thing that came to my mind was Lord this one is challenging.
Over the last couple of months, I have been hearing stories from people about mothers that have experienced the same thing that I am going though right now. And almost all of them ended in the person saying that “She has never been the same it “DESTORYED HER”.
I say this as Humbly as I can, but as BOLDLY as GOD has called me to be and not based on my strength but the strength of the Holy Spirit that this will not be my story.
I remember when Joshua died, I was so scared but didn’t show it. All I could think about was how was I going to bury my son. But then Jireh played in my heart.
I remember quoting verse to people when they called like
2 Corinthians 4:8-10
We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; 9 persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed. 10 We always carry around in our body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be revealed in our body.
I kept saying listen this isn’t going to break me, I read my bible I have seen what his word says. God is not a liar, and he is going to have to be to me all that he said he is. Provider, keeper, and Safe Haven. I do not have the wisdom nor strength, but he does and that is where my confidence lies. When facing tough times never rely on what you have because it will fail you but put confidence and strength in your redeemer. I can only speak like this because I have read his word and it is hidden in my heart.
I encourage my readers to get in your bible the same way you’re in your bag. If I write but never lead you to his word, then I am not doing my readers any justice each week and these post are useless. I must lead you to him who is the author and finisher of our lives.
So, to answer my Daddies question Hope is important because without it we have nothing to look forward to.
Joshua is missed beyond ink and paper. I do not know how long I will write for, but I can tell you that I will never have enough words nor time to express the sadness I feel in theses post. I miss that kid so much. His presence, Lord help me to get theses words out. People its hard I feel robbed, I needed more time. I wish I never dropped him off that Monday afternoon.
I know someone out there knows his killers. And I hope they share my post with them. I want YOU to know that YOU have caused a void that can never be healed. YOU hurt me and I want to know why?
But I forgive you and I pray in the power of the Holy Spirit that God will reveal himself to YOU and that YOU will surrender your life to Jesus. 2 Corinthians 7:10 says that Godly sorrow worketh repentance unto salvation. I do not hate YOU, but I hate what YOU have done. I know that you will get caught and when you do I pray that we can talk because I know that God will show you what you have done. And I will show you the Love that God has poured into my heart and then you will see the Love that I installed in Joshua and how your actions have affected me and his siblings.
Without Hope I would not be able to write this. I have an expectation from God that he will do what he said he will do. A lot of times when bad things happen, we think well this is it, people that is a lie from the pits of Hell.
I serve the God of Justice and although going to jail will never take away that void, I have an expectation, a hope that people will see that they can not just do what they want and live without the Consequences of it.
There are many mothers, father and families crying all around the world because of someone else’s actions. #YOURTIMEISUP
There are many verses in the Bible that speak about sowing and reaping
Galatians 6:7 says Be not deceived: God is not mocked so a man soweth that shall he reap.
We see so much injustice in the world everyday. To many unsolved murders that we have become desensitized to the point that some just believe that this is the way life goes, but that is a lie that will be overturned in the Mighty name of Jesus.
There is a parable in Luke 18:18 in this story there was a woman that was having an issue. It is unclear what the matter was but what we do know is that she would come everyday before the judge of the city and tell him about what was happen. She would say “Avenge me of my adversary” but each time the judge did nothing. I do not know why but one would think because the matter did not affect him personally. But something happen one day, the judge said this woman keeps on bothering me to give her justice let me give it to her so that she does not make me grow weary.
I have been praying but most importantly listening to the voice of God and he has heard the cries of his people. Even as I was typing this, I heard him say “vengeance is mine” Romans 12:19. Change is coming, not only for me but for the other mothers that have lost a child due to violence. I also hope that more mothers will not remain silent but become the mouthpiece for their children that are no longer here with us.
I believe that it is vitally important for mothers to cry out not only for their pain that these perpetrators have caused them. But also for the individual whose lives were cut short. Joshua was 18 years old. Never stamped his passport or brought his first car, and was robbed of graduating from college this month like he intended. He wanted a family. I remember 2 weeks before he passed, we were sitting in the living room, and he said I can’t wait to get married and have children. His killers stole that from him.
If I don’t speak up for him who will? If I don’t cry out to my Heavenly father and say Lord help me get Justice from those that robbed me then Joshua death will go in vain.
Verse 8 in LUKE 18 says I will tell you that he will avenge them speedily. One thing that this whole ordeal has taught me is that “TIME IS THE MASTER” and everything is set for a appointed time Ecclesiastes 3:1.
So, I place my hope in God that he will do only what he can do.
Personal Prayer and Reflection
Lord, I praise you and pray this prayer in the power of the Holy Spirit. You are the revealer of truth, Luke 8:7 says “For there is nothing hidden that will not be disclosed, and nothing concealed that will not be known or brought into the open. The truth shall be revealed.
Job 12:22 says He reveal the deep things of darkness and brings utter darkness into the light.
Lord strengthen theses Mothers, uphold them with your righteous right hand. Guard their hearts and emotions as you overturn each stone so that the truth will be made known about who did this to their children. Pull down every high thing that seeks to exalt itself against your will and let it be done.
Whether it has been 2 weeks, 2 years or even 20 let them be caught in the Might name of Jesus. Romans 5:5 reads- Hope does not disappoint, because the love of God has been poured out into our hearts by the Holy Spirit who was given to us.
Give theses mothers and families Justice in the Mighty name of Jesus.
JUSTICE WILL BE SERVED
So, hope is important in this season because based on Gods word we have something to look forward to.
CHANGE is coming
CHANGE is coming
CHANGE is coming
And that is what I heard the Lord say as I was writing.
Families it may have seemed that your journey has been hard but hear the voice of your healer I am coming to bring SWIFT JUSTICE. Be still and know that I am God, and I will lead you on this path of redemption.
Love your Father in Heaven
Until next time
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