Better Days Are Coming
While beginning to write the Lord spoke these words to me, I pray that these words will get you thinking and also that the Lord will help you understand that he is the light to you path in Jesus’ name.
Doubt- To waver or fluctuate in opinion; to hesitate; to be in suspense; to be in uncertainty; respecting the truth or fact; to be undetermined.
Sovereign- Supreme in power; possessing supreme dominion; as a sovereign ruler of the universe.
334 days, it has been without my son and that is hard to for me to comprehend. But I will continue to seek Justice for Joshua and encourage other families to do the same, because no one has the right to take life, and something more needs to be done when it comes to the amount of unsolved crime in our city.
Father creator and sustainer of all things. This morning may you speak through me so that one might find you in the mist of the storm.
Has it gotten easier? No, but God is keeping me. Do I get upset at times? Yes, at times, but his words speak calmness over my soul.
Sovereign is what he whispered to me as I sat down to write. He knows all things and rules over everything but still at times I doubt and wonder when will the answers come. I have been struggling and at times not trusting the one that holds all matters in his hands including Joshua murder case. It is taking long; is a thought that often runs through my mind and when will they get caught is a spoken prayer of mine. But I hear God say “Trust me I know what I am doing”.
There is this song by Elevation Worship called “Give Me Faith and the chorus of the song sings
Give me faith to trust what You say
That You’re good and Your love is great
I’m broken inside, I give You my life
I when I sit down and think about what is at the root of this doubt tree the only thing that comes to mind is that I had taken my focus off the Sovereign one.
In Matthew 14:22-33 the story told is about when Jesus walked on water and tells Peter to join him. But what grabbed my attention is what was written in verse 30-33.
Jesus Walks on Water
22 Then Jesus made the followers get into the boat. He told them to go to the other side of the lake. He said he would come later. He stayed there to tell everyone they could go home. 23 After Jesus said goodbye to the people, he went up into the hills by himself to pray. It was late, and he was there alone. 24 By this time the boat was already a long way from shore. Since the wind was blowing against it, the boat was having trouble because of the waves.25 Between three and six o’clock in the morning, Jesus’ followers were still in the boat. Jesus came to them. He was walking on the water. 26 When they saw him walking on the water, it scared them. “It’s a ghost!” they said, screaming in fear.
27 But Jesus quickly spoke to them. He said, “Don’t worry! It’s me! Don’t be afraid.”
28 Peter said, “Lord, if that is really you, tell me to come to you on the water.”
29 Jesus said, “Come, Peter.”
Then Peter left the boat and walked on the water to Jesus. 30 But while Peter was walking on the water, he saw the wind and the waves. He was afraid and began sinking into the water. He shouted, “Lord, save me!”
31 Then Jesus caught Peter with his hand. He said, “Your faith is small. Why did you doubt?”
32 After Peter and Jesus were in the boat, the wind stopped. 33 Then the followers in the boat worshiped Jesus and said, “You really are the Son of God.”
Every matter that happens in life is a storm. Some are big while others are so small and insignificant that they don’t even notice the impact that it has on our lives. But while writing this I got the revelation that God was railing me in on this road of Grief reminding me that all things are in hand. He is the ultimate revealer of truth.
1 Corinthians 4:5 says
5 Therefore judge nothing before the appointed time; wait until the Lord comes. He will bring to light what is hidden in darkness and will expose the motives of the heart. At that time each will receive their praise from God.
The storm has come but the Lord is my keeper. I am here placing my focus on time and in all reality, he is not bound by it and that is something that is hard to remember. So, I pray that he will help me focus not on what I see, but the invisible things as it reads in Hebrew 11:1 that Faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.
My prayer is that the Lord increases my faith. So, that I can take a step back and let God do what only he can do. I was reminded this week while watching a sermon that God does not need my help and that sometimes my interference can delay the very thing that I wanted. I need to trust that he has my best interest at heart and that all issues of life matter to him. Lord, would you grid me up in this season and strengthen me on this journey of Grief to wait and have patience knowing that you have set up everything for an appointed time.
Ecclesiastes 3:1-4
1To everything there is a season, and a time for every purpose under heaven:
2a time to be born and a time to die, a time to plant and a time to uproot,
3a time to kill and a time to heal, a time to break down and a time to build,
4a time to weep and a time to laugh, a time to mourn and a time to dance,
Matthew 14:30-31
30 But when he saw the wind, he was afraid and, beginning to sink, cried out, “Lord, save me!31 Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him. “You of little faith,” he said, “why did you doubt?”
As I wrote that verse, I heard say “cry out for the other mothers they need healing to and as I began to pray these words were spoken. I only write what I heard God Say.
I see your sorrow; I speak healing over your minds. Great rewards I have for you, to those that will seek me diligently. I have spoken a word to this great battle, know that you will not be defeated. I hold the keys to all things. No weapon formed against you shall prosper
BREAK, BREAK, BREAK, BREAK, BREAK, BREAK
And hold your peace, The Sovereign one
,September 24th will be a year since Joshua was taken. I hate this for me and my kids and the other families that are facing the same thing, but I pray for swift justice as the Lord spoke to me one time. I pray that this will not get dragged out any longer and that people would do the right thing. Not based on what their community thinks but based on the standard of God and humanity.
Last night I was reading from the book of James chapter 4, and I was reminded that the mouth is a dangerous tool that can be used for good and bad. The verse states that we start fights and arguments over the war that really lies inside of us. we desire to have and when we cannot get what we want we kill for it. And even when we pray for something God does not give it to us because he knows that our motives for wanting that thing are not pure. It is very easy to fall into the trap of speaking things because we are angry, especially when one has wronged us. But I want to challenge my viewers to make peace and not war. Leave whatever battle you are facing before the Lord. Speak not evil against anyone, Love and not hate. Forgive and pursue joy, in doing this you please God and that should be your goal.
Prayer of week
Sovereign One Creator of Heaven and Earth, touch our hearts tonight oh God. Heal our perspective to see life the way you created it to be. Psalms 23:4 says thou we walk through the valley of the shadow of death we will fear no evil for thou art with me. Draws us out of the murky waters and place us on the platform on which you stand. Reality can seem like a fog at times, but your word says that you will rebuke the devour for our sake, clear the path God. Build up our faith in you so much that we cannot even think to take her eyes off of you when the storm hits. Help us to be in perfect peace by the still waters in the mighty name of Jesus.
Song of the Week is Give Me Faith Song by Elevation Worship (I do not own the rights to this song)
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